I’ve tried. I have done all I can fucking do. I am exhausted, and honestly, I don’t know how much fight I have left in me. I gave you everything, saiy everything, tried to be everything you wanted or needed but all you do is shoot it down as if it isn’t good enough. If it wasn’t then quit dragging this out longer than it has to be. I have so much going on right now and losing you won’t make life any better. You said you loved me, you needed me, you will never give up. I am beginning to think it was a lie.. 

I shouldn’t have to go through the hurt I go through on a day to day basis. I should be able to her the guy I feel in love with, not this new guy he fucking turned into. I can’t stand it, this isn’t you, the last three weeks haven’t been you. If it is, you’ve been hiding it far to long. About 8 months to be exact. 

Where is the guy who wanted nothing but to see a smile on his girl friends face? Or sit there on the phone all hours of the night just to explain how much he loved me and how we will beat the odds and we will work out. Feel free to call me when he comes back, until then. Take care. 

I’m going to avoid tumblr for a while.. nothing but stuff that’ll bring me down… 

Our silence says enough. 

I don’t see why I put myself through all this anymore. Things have changed. We have changed. Once things do, and you aren’t who I fell in love with, it’ll be nearly impossible to get you back. If you’re happier this way then tell me. I’ll be gone before you know it, never to speak a word to you again, because I couldn’t do that. It would be impossible to get over you. I wouldn’t be able to deal with the pain of seeing you and not telling you my feelings for you. I can only bend so much before I completely break. Better hurry up before I snap..